Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Yahweh, a Cross & A Dove

I run out the door and jump into my car this morning. It always seems I am running behind. Morning comes too quick some days and I find it hard to get out of bed and start the day. I start the day by pushing the “ugh’s” and the “I don’t wanna’s” out of my mind so that I can get my body motivated. Its Wednesday.

Another day. Another dollar.

I feel rushed as usual…I will most certainly be late if I don’t hit the lights through town just right.

I pull out of the driveway and my mind immediately tries to overcome my thoughts with a mental to do list. The panic tries to rush in. I take a deep breath. The change in season, for some reason, always seems to send me back to a few years ago. A time in my life when I did not want to leave the house at all...grocery stores made me hyperventilate if I had to wait in line…and driving…well I won’t even go there. I have dealt with anxiety and panic attacks for most of my life. Up until about 8 years ago…they controlled me. Then I figured out…I could control them. It’s not always easy but I have learned to manage them. So, as my fears and worries tried to creep in on me this morning I did the one thing that I know chases them away. I take a deep breath and I say out loud:

“But David found strength in the Lord…and so do I !” (1 Samuel 30:6b)(my addition)

I grab my Ipod and turn on my current favorite song “Bless the Lord”. I sing out at the top of my lungs and I feel better. Letting the worries out and filling that space with His praises. Before I know it I am pulling off the highway and down the road to the office where I spend my days. I look up as I am singing and I can’t believe whats in front of me.



A reminder of the cross, a reminder that Yahweh died on that cross, and a reminder of the peace it brings to me because of the sacrifice He made. Can you see them?

I stop to take it in and capture a picture. A reminder that I can look at throughout the day to keep the worries at bay. Sure, I was a few minutes late but …it was soo worth it!

“I will worship you, I will Bless your name forever!
I will worship you…Bless the Lord, O my Soul, BLESS THE LORD!”


**My friend Jennifer over at Getting Down with Jesus talks much about finding Yahweh and God reminders in the everyday. She is such an encouragement…so stop over and be blessed. Then go out and find some of your own!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Savor the Autumn

Evening comes early lately and I feel like my internal clock is beckoning me to slow down and savor every moment of this autumn love. To store it up for those winter months that are cold and chilly. Savor nights by the campfire soaking in the warmth, while inhaling the crisp air around me. Watching the sun set across the field out back and wondering how much more beautiful heaven will be. Perhaps he offers this free preview to keep my eyes on Him. Just a smidge of heaven on earth, right here, right now meeting me in my own back yard.

Its funny how these changes in the seasons can bring about a soul change. A stirring under the surface. The ripples that come from me stepping forward into an abyss that I fully don't understand. The ripples of change surround me and I find myself feeling a little twisted on the inside. Missing the routine and what used to be, I stand still. I want to go back. Knowing in my heart that that is not where He wants me right now. He bids me to wait. He asks me to trust, and so I will savor this Autumn...on the outside and the inside.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Happy Birthday, Dear Hubby

Tomorrow (Saturday Oct 16th) my miracle man turns 40!

I thank God everyday for you. And I can't wait to see where He takes us in the next 40 years!

I love you! Even when you look like the ocean spray cranberry ninja fruit guy!

Monday, October 4, 2010

Sometimes words......

don't come easy.....



and that is when God provides



the perfect opportunity



to be still



and reflect on his goodness.....