Saturday, December 31, 2016

New Years Eve 2016

As 2016 comes to a close I can honestly say I have never been more thankful that another year has come to an end.

Typically, I am very depressed this time of year because I have always been a fear-er of the future.  Why venture into the unknown New Year when the year that is coming to a close has been a pretty easy ride?  Well not this year....

Last year at this time, I sensed this year would be a hard one.  I knew in my heart of hearts that it would be my mothers last holiday with us here on earth.  I wanted to freeze time and take it all in.  I didn't want to move into the New Year knowing at the end of it we would be without her.  Little did I know this year had more in store that what I bargained for.  We not only lost her but my oldest sister, both our dogs and many nights of sleep.

However,  one thing I did not think about this time last year was that no matter what was going to happen this year....God was already there waiting to meet me.  I fretted and worried about what was to come, forgetting that He would provide and give me a strength I didn't know that I had.  It's funny, that as sit today and think about the last year, He showed me that He was the most gentle, loving Heavenly Father and that I do not give him the credit that He deserves.  While this year was hard and sad- it was also good and we were blessed.

This year there was tears but there was also laughter.  There was forgiveness, there was healing and most importantly there was LOVE and GRACE.  There was a celebration for a baby on the way, there were picnics and dinners with family and friends, long talks with loved ones and as bittersweet as some of these were without the ones we lost -we got through them together, knowing that our loved ones were watching from above.   I am so thankful for that.....

So, bring on 2017 because whatever may lie ahead......HE is already there.