Guilty as Charged

I woke up early to dive into His Word this morning. And the words I read pierced my heart:

The LORD said to Moses, "How long will these people (Julie) treat me with contempt? How long will they (Julie) refuse to believe in me, in spite of all the miraculous signs I have performed among them? -Numbers 14:11

I began to think on all the Lord had brought the Israelites through and yet they still refused to listen to him. I am not so different when I search the depths of my heart and soul. For He has brought me through many a bondage and trial and yet- I forget so easily. I still try to go my own way...to fix the problems of the world instead of laying them at His feet.

I am guilty.

Guilty of the fact that although I know I am saved by the blood of the Lamb I still try to pave my own way despite His leading. Guilty that even though I am not worthy of the grace that he has showered on me-the human in me acts at times that I am owed something more or something better. Guilty that I want to know him more, but I put everything else before Him.

I am guilty. Guilty of presumption.

Nevertheless, in their presumption they went up toward the high hill country, though neither Moses nor the ark of the LORD's covenant moved from the camp. Then the Amalekites and Canaanites who lived in that hill country came down and attacked them and beat them down all the way to Hormah. -Numbers 14:44-45

Even after they defied His instruction they still expected the blessing. Ouch.

In order for me to let go of the things that keep me from Him I must lay them down at His feet. I must get them out in the open...it is only then I will be able to surrender my all to Him and let Him do His work in me.

So Lord,

I lay it all at your feet today. Take my:

selfish ambitions
judgmental heart
my fears of the future
my fears of what other people may think of me
my seemingly endless need for more

Take it all, Lord. I trust you as you continue to work in me.