New Habit

I had no idea that when I read my devotions early this morning, how it was going to impact the rest of my day.

I have to be honest....I am NOT a morning person.

I like to stay nestled in bed until about 7:30 (sometimes a wee bit later). Then its a mad dash for a shower, clothes and out the door by 7:55 so that I can make it to work by 8:30.

But for the last few months I have been working really hard to get up when hubby gets up (6:45 a.m.) so that I can get some alone time in with my main man Jesus. If I don't I find I am easily distracted and before you know its bed time and I have not talked with Him all day. When that happens its no wonder I am grumpy, worried, and just plain lazy.

I started this back in August and I have been doing well with it. And you know what?

Its changing the way I think.

With that being said ...this morning I ended up falling back to sleep after hubby got up and I didnt wake up until 7:25. Immediately I began thinking how terrible I am and how I am not going to get everything in before work this morning. I took my shower, as I walked past my room....I saw my Bible and my devotional just sitting there. I said to myself "Ugh no time...I will have to do it later." I took two steps and something in me said.."Do it now".

I backed up sat down and read the words of Psalm 63, and Psalm 139:7-10. When I read todays reading my heart skipped a beat:

"I want you to learn a new habit. Try saying, "I trust you, Jesus" in response to whatever happens to you. If there is time, think about who I am in all My Power and Glory; ponder also the depth and and breadth of my love for you."

I have struggled, for as long as I can remember, from panic attacks. I am a natural born worry wart. If there is nothing to worry about ...don't worry I will find something. It was as if these words were speaking just to me.

I said a small prayer that no matter what may lay ahead today- that I would say "I trust you, Jesus."

Oh how I needed to be reminded of that because less than an hour later I received some startling news that shook my insides to the core.


(more tomorrow)

And I love Him....

Its funny how when my one word for this year (Abide) came to my mind, everything since then has just confirmed that that is the word that was meant for me this year.

I slipped out of bed this morning, opened my Jesus Calling devotional and my bible and this is what greeted me:

"Relax in my healing presence. As you spend time with Me, your thoughts tend to jump ahead to todays plans and problems. Bring your mind back to Me for refreshment and renewal. Let the light of My Presence soak into you, as you focus your thoughts on Me. Thus I equip you to face whatever the day brings. This sacrifice of time pleases Me and strengthens you. Do not skimp on our time together. Resist the clamor of tasks waiting to be done. You have chosen what is better and it will not be taken away from you."

Psalm 105:4~ Search for the Lord and for His strength; continually seek Him.

Abide. Remain. Search for the Lord.

My heart swells at the thought that me searching after Him....pleases Him. I go to Him for refreshment...offering nothing. I need His Word in my life for me to breath. And He loves it. When I think about it- its selfish on my part. But He loves it.

In what other relationship on this earth- would that be the case? How is it possible that our relationship with Him can be totally opposite of anything we have ever encountered? Normally we would be accused of being self-centered, too needy. Not with Him.

And I love Him.