Wednesday, December 28, 2011

The Year of Fear-Less

Its hard to believe that this year has come and gone so quickly. In less than 4 days 2011 will already be over and gone and 2012 will be here with its promise of a fresh starts and other chances..

Another thing that is hard to believe is that this is only my 15th post this year. UGH! On one hand I feel like a failure, on the other hand I feel like its ok. 2011 was not my year for blogging. It was, however, a great year to read. I did a lot of that and I really enjoyed reading other peoples blogs. :)

Last year, around this time I named my upcoming year. Fear-Less was what I wanted to accomplish this year. As I was driving home from work tonight I began thinking of this last year.

Do I think I achieved what I set out to do this year?

Honestly? My answer would be a big fat NO.

But I did learn something. I learned that I may never stop anticipating and being afraid of the what-if's in this life. That just may be the thorn in my side that I am asked to bear. I did learn, however, that they will not consume me if I am consumed with Christ.

Its ok for me to be afraid at times....because once I pull myself up by my bootstraps I can see that God is right there with me.

I also learned that many of the things I feared the most last year at this time:
never happened.

So I wasted those minutes, hours, days and months for moments I can never get back.

I worried that this may be the last year with both my parents......and guess what?

They are still a blessing in my life.

So this new year approaching is not going to be robbed of any more precious moments. I want to linger in each moment and view it as a gift. I want to savor all the time I have with my family and friends. I want to let go of the things that I have no control of. I want to following God's leading and not be worried of what those around me are thinking. Because bottom line.....its between God and me.

Not me and them.

Last year around this time I wasn't looking forward to a year of unknowns. This year I have a different outlook.....and I am so glad.

My word for 2012 is Abide. Knowing that no matter what may happen I want to keep my eyes fixed on Him.

"If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you." John 15:7

I pray that this New Year is a healthy, happy year for all of you. May God show himself in BIG ways to all of us this year!